Chapter 30

---Please Dont HATE Me----


I don’t know what happened to me. She said his name and I just snapped. I had to finish…it wasn’t what I had wanted…she was supposed to be moving with me enjoying this as much as I was. But she wasn’t moving. After I emptied myself into her again and then moved my hands from the back of her head and throat I tried to wake her up…



“My love its time…please wake up…enjoy this with me”


Still nothing…


I put my hand on her throat again but this time I felt for a pulse….nothing.


What did I do….I didn’t…did I… I felt again…still nothing.


When I killed her friend it was because she got in the way…it actually felt good…I knew if anyone else got in my way I could have done it again…even to golden boy. But this didn’t feel good…I killed my love.


I scooped her up in my arms….


“NOOOOO..” I sat there rocking back and forth…


It was then that I heard the door…and people running everywhere


“FREEZE”


The cops ran into the house and found John sitting on the bed with Hadley in his arms…

“I didn’t mean to hurt …” but they cut him off and grabbed Hadley immediately checking for a pulse…and put John in a robe and handcuffs leading him out the awaiting car.

Detective Smith walked out with the medics….

“Anything…”

“No sir…he snapped her neck. She died instantly.”

Detective Smith just nodded his head and went to his car…he had to go tell the family. Usually he tried not to let the case bother him. But this one did…he felt like he really dropped the ball. He moved to slow..the trace worked on the cell phone but it was just too late.

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Sidney kept pacing…he hadn’t sat down since he got back to Mario’s with his family. He couldn’t go back to that house…where this mess started.

“Sid its going to be….” Troy walked in trying to get Sid to calm down for a little bit

They had been telling him that since he was getting ready to leave the hospital

“LEAVE ME ALONE…I AM NOT GOING TO BE OK UNTIL I GET HER BACK.”

“Sid…I understand…”

“NO YOU REALLY DON’T….THIS HAS NEVER HAPPENED TO YOU”

“No it hasn’t but please sit and try and relax they will tell us when they know something.”

Sidney knew there was nothing he could do right now but that just made it worse. He promised Hadley that he would keep her safe and he didn’t do it. He had to fix it…He had to get Hadley back…he had something very important to give her.

Finally they got Sidney upstairs to his old room so he could try and sleep for a little bit…he had just dozed off when his mom walked in.

“Sid…” she gently shook his shoulder to wake him up.

“Sid the detectives are here.”

Sid jumped up and ran downstairs hoping that Hadley would be there. Everyone followed behind him.

“Where Hadley…” was all he could say.

“Mr. Crosby maybe you should sit.”

“STOP…where is she”

“Mr. Crosby…I am very sorry to tell you this but Ms. Scott was….

“WAS WHAT….”

“…killed”

Sid just collapsed he didn’t know what to do…He felt the tears pouring out of his eyes but he couldn’t do anything.

Mario and Troy came over to Sidney and helped him onto a couch…while the detectives explained what happened as much as they could…they didn’t go into details.

After the detectives finished Sidney just sat there…still not able to do anything. But when the detectives got up to leave Sidney just stopped them…

“How…”

“Mr. Crosby…I don’t think..”

“I SAID HOW DMANIT…”

“He broke her neck…again I am really sorry.” and then they made there way out of the house.

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The next few days were a blur…Sidney just went through the motions. He let everyone else plan everything. He couldn’t believe that he was going to have to bury her.

“Sid it’s time to go.”

Sidney looked up and saw Mario in the doorway. He wanted to get their earlier than everyone else. He wanted to have some more time alone with her. He still had something very important to give her.

“Ok I will be down in just a second I have to grab something.”

Mario just nodded and made his way downstairs to wait in the car.

When they got to the church where the service was going to be held everyone waited outside while Sidney went in to say goodbye his way.

He walked down the center of the church where her body lay in front of the church waiting to be to rest.

“Hi Hads” Sidney walked up to where she was laying and pulled up a chair.

“I don’t really know what to do…I feel so lost without you” tears started falling down his face but he continued anyway…

“I would say sorry but you would hit me so I think I’ll just do this instead.” Sidney got up from the chair and pulled the velvet box out of his suit jacket opened it up and pulled out a white gold diamond solitary and slipped it on her finger… and then bent down and lightly kissed her.

“Remember you said no one would ever…” he had to stop and wipe his tears fast but then “ love you enough to want to marry you…” he grabbed her hand and held it…

“Never say Never baby… I loved you enough I still love you enough…I LOVE YOU ALWAYS BABY”

He turned around and made his way back to his family not bother to wipe his face. He gave his heart to Hadley and she was always going to have it.



THE END